October 24th 2010- When two become one.
I needed to go out for some air,
He decided to tag along, afraid that I'd get hurt,
We walked away from the reception while holding hands.
Standing about a meter from each other,he slowly sprung me against his chest;Bursting his feelings to me.
Was it the alcohol?I denied a few times.but he's wasn't near drunk.
Then when he told me he loved me.Lighting shucked me,my heart suddenly became alive.
Then he asked me if i wanted to be with him.I couldn't reply.
Surrounded my the mist on a rainy night;I pressed my lips against his lips.
Love has no limits .♥ xox
Strange
Thursday, May 5, 2011 @ 1:03 PM
Today Royail Messaged me on Facebook chat. Surprisionly i wasn't hyped up for his love like before. My feelings for him are long gone ; thanks to my ban trai Jin (Boyfriend). I'm in better hands with him. So the convo started with a hello. So read on and tell me you're input.
[Royail San] Idunno I really missed you, kinda dissapointed how u don't msg me [You] i care for everyone [Royail San] Then care for everyone then okay W.e fuck [You] why are you getting mad? [Royail San] You don't care so w.e [You] I care ..You get mad at me so easily,Don't end it like that [Royail San] I'm not okay. I'm happy [You] talk it through [You] I dont even know what i did wrong -.- [Royail San] You didn't do anything wrong okay,Just go be happy [You] :S how the hell can i go be happy when your upset? or i did something wrong,why dont you ever want to talk about it to me? [Royail San] Cause you don't care anymore [You] you just say GO or w.e . I'm just saying that cause i care.,but you dont open up [Royail San] I am opening up [You] so how am i going to read you and help you,you dont open up to me [Royail San] This is how I open up [You] once or ever,thats not opening up. [Royail San] I always so,It is [You] i'm not mad at you or anything over all i just want to see how you are and how your doing over their but then you somehow get mad at me or you take things to a different level then you just say Go or leave or fuck w.e [Royail San] Then don't talk to me anymore,Simple as that [You] then why did you message? [Royail San] Cause I told you already,Can u not read [You] i can You just dont read what i write. im trying to explain my point but , you just dont care it's okay, i'm fine with itit's not like this is my first time explaining. but whatever floats your boat. sall good :) still forgiving but if you aren't l'll just give you space. like wise. L'll let you cool off. [Royail San] I fucking still care about you..I always check to see if ur online and how ur doing, You don't get the point Is that I miss you I miss talking to you I miss laughing with you I miss it all But you seems to show me that its all forgotten [You] I missed those days. But you should see how you had treated me then and after. You took care of yourself thats good but you didn't really care for those who cared about you. like you always said before were good friends Like always there are days i wonder how you're doing there. Trying to see if you have made it up to your goal and staying away from trouble. [Royail San] You know me, I always get in trouble no matter what You don't have to wonder you have to come to me and ask me ur self I want you to be happy, so I let u be cause maybe if I'm not around you'll do better without me.. And it really seems like you are But fuck I can't just stand aside and pretend I don't care about you [You] Back then you didn't explain i did wait. until you moved on. [Royail San] Trust me on this one diana.. I never moved on [You] From a 2 year relationship ends it. You dont know how i felt before. I dream about you like 100000000000 times But I don't tell you You know I don't like telling you these things But its killing me to know your don't care about me that anymore [You] I would not have known.. You never opened up to me. It was only when you were with me. then when you moved to van. That all changed. telling me to move on and you were with other girls. I was hurt but i had hope. but it never seems to get to you. then i had to move on. cause your doing way much better over there. then here. [Royail San] You moved on, so I'm happy for you Ill leave you alone alright [You] were not finish talking* [Royail San] 2:20pm I think we are now,You told me already,So ill go fuck okay I'm happy for you, now go live ur life Bye [You] why now do you tell me this? [Royail San] Cause today I just couldn't take it anymore I couldn't stand not talking to you [You] well you can always talk to me [Royail San] But funny thing is its only me who feels the same way Me who feels this way***No I'm done,Like its offical diana Me and my buddy tony were going to toronto this jun [You] :o really? [Royail San] But now I won't even step foot near u [You] why not? not even a hello. [Royail San] I got offered a legit job and a place to live there Now I'm fucking done,Fuck diana, R u dumb [You] ? [Royail San] Its fucking done between us I'm not going to talk to you anymore I'm going to delete u off everything I'm through This I can promise u now [You] 2:26pm so your are going to overlap my promise before?you're*?? [You] you dont remember. it's okay :) what the new promise now. [Royail San] K bye [You] How can you make a promise with out the person agreeing to it? [Royail San] Cause I said so diana,I fucking put my heart out and it got stomped So I'm fucking done with you [You] your mad at me. so now tell me everything. [Royail San] Tell you what [You] tell me what ever going on in your head [Royail San] I feel like you lied to me [You] how? [Royail San] You told me you will always love me and always want to be with me And none of that was true, So fuck it [You] I did. You just never showed me afterwords. [Royail San] Okay then,So your done with it,So should I So let's just fucking end it right here please [You] what ever you ask me today i shall answer it. [Royail San] No its over right now diana,You have no more feelings for me So its done right nowHope ur happy [You] As you said before were good friends. and it was in 09 not now. [Royail San] Believe w.e you want But in the end You and me are finish for good So remember today is the day we never talk again [Me] so like. who ever you had dated. you will neer be friends with them? never* [Royail San] They are different,They were not u [You] but i see how different i am. so your willing to end our friendship? [Royail San] Yeah [You] I dont understand why. [Royail San] Cause it is Diana why can't u just except that were through talking noe [You] i'm trying to save a friendship. But i guess you dont want to be apart of it. Do as you wish. I can't make or tell you. [Royail San] Alright [You] I guess this is really goodbye. You will always be apart of my life. never a dull moment that i will not forget you. you were a great boyfriend back then. I hope you have a bright future. and stay out of trouble. Thank you for everything that we had shared.
THATS LOVE.
I'm just a girl that's bright .
I love to hang out with my friends; Family the most.i'm 18.5 of age.
simply taken by Jin Le.
I like to challenge myself , i play the hard game. dont get on my bad side.
Cause im the total opposite